Given the emotional ups and downs of today, it felt like today was an emoticon blog kind of day.
On balance, there was anger and there was joy today.
There was relief and calm and moments of complete bombshells and the dummy being thrown out of the pram. By me. For which I am not impressed. And yet I congratulate myself for self soothing, calming my mind and then apologising.
It was a day of packing alone as well as a day of being with a friend, where she shared her tips and showed empathy on moving into old listed houses and I shared tips and showed empathy on long drawn out diseases on a parent.
It was a day of rollercoaster ups and downs, but Eckhart Tolle speaking in my car to me, reminded me that goals should be intentions to be let go in order to enjoy the moment, rather than wishing to be elsewhere. His bumper sticker…”I would rather be here“. And if only I had heard his advice on not saying yes or no after a question, but to answer it back with a question, to get more facts, to gain more time to decide, perhaps then I wouldn’t have nearly thrown a grenade into the sale of our London flat…..
And just has he had calmed me down to a Zen state, I received an emoticon filled message that could only mean one thing. And I was back up on that rollercoaster, flying off the end… champagne in hand…