Tuesday I had to let go. Yesterday i accepted I had to accept. Today I feel relief. So much relief…. unhooking a huge old winter wool cloak and feeling it slipping away behind me and walking away, lighter. 
And towards the light. In this case a bright white blank sheet of paper. No ties.
I drank rose under the wisteria with my family and felt peace with our decisions. I drank a glass of red with a friend as the sun went down and felt warmth from the support of friendship.
And I realised I had driven miles around Yorkshire looking at rental properties without distraction. Without having to listen to audiobooks or music or even the constant chatter of the voices in my head.
Today there was relief, peace and blessed quiet.