I am a little nervous tonight….

 

I am about to go to bed…

 

I am a little nervous tonight…

 

Firstly… because when I get in to bed, I seem to awaken some horrendous monster in my throat that causes me to cough… and cough … and cough… and cough… til I almost vomit. I think I have Tom and Willy to thank for that one… I wonder where I will leave my tea… Willy was outside the swimming pool, Tom in the middle of the kitchen floor…   I hate being sick. I am a little nervous.

 

Secondly… because when I wake up, I have a tight schedule in order to make my train at 8.52, after having done school drop off and parked the car. I am a little nervous…

 

Thirdly… because when I wake up, it is the day that I will see my mum … It’s been over 6 weeks since my last visit. I am a little nervous… I am a little nervous as to how she will be and how I will feel. I am a little nervous.

 

I am about to go to bed…

 

I am going to carry out a practice that I read about once… and before I go to sleep, I am going to play out how I want tomorrow to run.

 

I am going to imagine everything going smoothly, calmly…

 

I am going to imagine Mum, calm, happy to hold my hand, smile at me…

 

I am going to imagine a good discussion with the doctors to work out where we are going to move her to next…

 

I am going to imagine a lovely lunch with my Dad and sister…

 

I am going to imagine a lovely evening with Mr OCD and his sister and family…

 

I am going to imagine a good day…