A new start!

The fourth of January!   Today signified a fresh start… a new year… a new term…

 

Excited for the newness of the next day, I got in to bed early last night, read my book and fell in to a deep sleep…

 

Only to be woken up by Willy and a nightmare at 3.30am…

 

Have you ever had one of those nights when you just can’t turn off your mind? No sign of the grey cloak of sleep appearing?

 

I just couldn’t go back to sleep…

 

No position was comfortable… my front, my side, my back… one pillow, 2 pillows, no pillows…

 

Each time I tried to empty my mind a new thought, a new memory, a new task to do, flew into my mind….

 

And then each thought, task, memory, wish, dream flurry like leaves in a whirlwind… and as I let each one go, another comes in, or maybe one I have already let go… Round and round… faster and more furious…

 

And the clock keeps on ticking! Closer to the time to get up…

 

Burying myself under the duvet further doesn’t help…

 

Repeating my gratitude’s only makes me think of something else… triggers another thought, goal, task…

 

And then it is 6.08 and Tom is up going to the loo… and just as I had nodded off to sleep, there is no hope of returning to sleep.

 

So I tell myself that 5 hours is a perfectly acceptable amount of sleep to function on… get up, get showered, clean my teeth, do 15 minutes pilates (killer after being away from my mat for 6 weeks!)… kiss Willy goodbye and get in the car to school…

 

Whether it is lack of sleep, the pitch black drive to school and back, the lack of toxins (for I started a detox at the weekend – nothing like a terrible hangover to kickstart early Detox and Cleanse!)… but my head felt like it was in a vice…

 

So I decided to start again.

 

I went back to bed.

 

The rest of the day has been pretty good!

#freshstart

#startover

#newday

 

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